This is something kinda personal, but I hope you guys don’t mind. It’s just a vent.

Before Dallen & I started talking again, there was another guy. He started out as a close friend. He was the one who made me realize that I deserved better while I was dating this other guy. After I broke up with my ex, that’s when I developed feelings for him. And after awhile, I found out he liked me too. He asked me out on April 7th, 2010 at 3:05PM. To be honest, I’m not even 100% if that’s the right time, but oh well.. haha. He was such a sweet guy.. and I was happier than ever. But that happiness didn’t last long. As a matter of fact, it only lasted a week. He broke up with me because he realized he still loved his ex-girlfriend. I guess I wasn’t good enough, because his love for me couldn’t even compare to his love for her. That day he ended the relationship, I cried and cried and cried while all my friends could do was hold me as I did. For awhile, I lived in depression. Thinking that I could never be first place in someone elses heart. I always came in second. That was until Dallen came out of the blue and loved me when I was in need for someone to love me.

But before he did.. before me and this guy even became official, he gave me his sweater because I was going home and it was cold outside. After I got it, I wore it to sleep the whole week until his scent had went away.

I’ve had that sweater, even after we broke up. Today, I told my brother to give it to the guy’s younger brother. Even though I let go a long time ago, I think that this was my way of telling him I really have. I don’t hate him.. I never did. Even after what he did to me. But those words he told me .. how he promised he’d never do a thing to hurt me, and yet he did.. I don’t think I could ever forget. So with that .. this was the first time in awhile that I’ve spoken of him, and this is the last time I’ll ever speak of him. My last goodbye.